Looking back, 10 years is a long time. Long, because so much has happened. That was a bitching time. For better or for worse. I have made choices. That's the point: To opt for people, things, and life. I opted for complicated relationships, against awards, against a straight life. Awkward situations are A to A+. To have principles without rituals. No repetitions, no standards. No fame, no pain. It's better to be offensive than to kiss asses. That's not gentle, I know. Lessons learned, personally, professionally — dirty. 10 years of — I would call it a bizarre — preparation.